DAILY

2day the person that i waited,MrDay was absent...to class... was incomplete but then I controlled myself... I know wery well we are just classmates... And i myself confused what kind of feelings do i f 2wards him... I must nt fall anyway...

Bio class what ok untill she showed us a video that gives me such an impact.. she showed video on cruelity of humans 2wards animals... just 4 their fur.. can u imagine skinnig cute animals alive?? Its too clear that human r so blinded with money... lost their humanity! Forgot the existence of heaven and so willingly wanted to be dumped into the hell!! I cant even take my lunch afta watching it.. although i watched oni a bit of it.... Oh God please safe ur speakless creation, ANIMALS...

"haaiizz how nice if I can see MrDay now" this thought was running in ma mind while climbing the stairs and at the same time I saw him near the window... I felt so brighten up and I feel so hapie inside.. He saw me...he turned away.. turn back 2 me, smilling... with his eyes widely open...with a shine. Then,suprisingly he spoke to me... hehe trying to overcum his shyness i guess.... Moreover, he noez that i already kw the yesterday`s paper content... hahaha poor boy

2day MrMutton Head in short we call him Mr.HD really makes me angry... he was teasing me in class,but its really over...who is he??? after all a cheater! n this is a promise made by me... I will give back what he deserve... I will show him.... I hope ma fren MissKaur wont be angry on me... *winks* (she noez y)

DAILY

2day was normal... go to college ... my tall classmate ..absent... trying to be lazy i guess...hehe
all was so normal..till i flip Mr.Day`s book, just to find out sumthing coz he alweez seems to scribe sumthing... that makes me so curious.
till i found a note....
haha i felt its too cute..
this is what he wrote
"what you must do"
1)keep cool
2)relax
3)walk slowly
4)dont mind other`s bussiness
5)just do ur work
6)put urself high
7)f confidence
8)make sure make up ( 'wwhhooaa')
9)be smart
10) do not afraid of people
11)do not be afraid people looking at you
12)Alweez smile! make sure (this is very sure hahah)
13) walk confidently.. WHY FEAR?
14) talk properly
15)loudly


WHY AFRAID GOD IS ALWEEZ WITH U
SO ALWEEZ REMEMBER GOD.

dont u all feel its really honest and cute?????

Daily

29th March 2010



2day is my physic test...n im back afta sitting 4 it... errmmm not to say hard but nt that gud enug aso.. i really hope i cn score well.. i realize im not as serious as how I was in sem 1... I dunno y... Moreover, all this MrDay`s matter distracting me a lot... Oh God where would all this end?? will time give me a gud.. sad or lost ending? I never know...

This Thursday I will be goin bck home 4 revision week.. I really miss ma home badly... I feel so helpless here.. I need ma mum... I need my family... Moreover this 10th we`re gonna have family gathering... can u imagine...my family, all my relatives, cousins gonna meet njoy ourselves!! we gonna rock the day. I cant wait for the excitement,njoyment,fun!!! woww its too much...

Yeahh,,sumthing that makes me proud happened just 5 min ago... I was visiting my master, the maestro Rahman`s webpage, then a malay student, a guy sat beside me browsing the net... In a glance he saw Rahman`s pic n ask me... "HEY THIS IS A.R RAHMAN RYTE!!" then i ask him back... "WOAH U KNOW HIM?" n he answered.. "COME ON LH... HE`S A LEGEND, WHO DUNNO HIM? THE WORLD KNOW HIM" ... woww i was really proud that time.... its a undescribeable feeling inside..... A.R RAHMAN is alweez the best... The King of My Heart... alweez n 4evaa...... love u sir...

LIFE CYCLE!!

When we were in the mother's uterus,
We were very happy, closing our eyes.
Then, when we came down to the floor,
As soon as we fell, we lost our sleep.
The sleep we lost is still in our eyes.
We don't know when will that sleep come again.
I am living in water (tears)
Am i a same kind like a fish?


No one has reached the shore by holding the waves.
Its not fair pretending to be happy when we are alone.
Tears is also another shape of drugs coz it makes us forgot the sadness a while.
Which is the path & which is the life is unknown,
Like the circle has neither the start nor the end.
If this continues, the the creative thoughts will stop coming to us.


Birth is one bank of a river, And death is the other bank.
In the middle of the two is running is the river called Fortune.
Life has no obligations,Being within a circle is the obligation, nothing else.
Is the Man eating fruit (grapes) brilliant? n those who drinks grape wine is a criminal?
The human beings inspite knowing this,
Is unworried about it, flying to the sky & earth.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...

26th March 2010,

It hs been 1 month I broke up with ma bf... i was so heartbroken.... coz he cheated me for 7 months..although i was so dam true to him.. He give tears to the eyes that alwiz care 4him.. I get to noe that he`s a playboy... Anyhow im glad of my naturally strong character n now i managed to build up back my spirit..
Now it was like im scared to fall 4 any1 again... not that im scared that it will affect my education and stuffs... but a phobia 2ward guys... and love.. i never n will never blame love or guys...but i cant bear any pain in ma heart anymore... and my trust on guys has gone just like that..Moreover, i feel ther`s much more imp things than 'love' as my studies, family, hapiness, frenz, ambition, and dreams.
Recently, im having sum kind of undescribeable feelings with a guy, Mr.DAY.
i was attracted to him even when the 1st time i saw him.. the 2nd day of college..
yet.. i do nt develop this feeling...., and tought it is just an attraction coz he`s really a gud looking guy in my college!!! but then, afta i broke up with Mr.S.. the feeling 2wards Mr.Day continued as if after a long break.. and 4 sure i did`t ask 4 it.. im trying my very best to avoid this feelings.. but yet it is so strong like a magnetic force... I really dunno what to do... n the worst part is... i felt shy too much of shy... and to plus the worstness he`s a shy type... we cant even tok normally.. sumthing is blocking.. there`s sumthingg... BUT, yet i dun noe whether he`s having da same kind of feelings or nt...
After sum investigation with ma close fren miss.KAUR, sum signs showing that he might aso developing the same feeling..... She`s so sure bout it... but 4me... all the signs just prove about 10% oni .. I just cant put hope on anything....d
i dun noe what to do.... wheter to continue trying to avoid this feeling or go on with that......... HELPLESS.......